Why this blog

One of the main reasons is for my healing—my journey in this new life I am now forced to live. It is my way of journaling. In the beginning, I spoke with friends who went through this same journey, as well as therapists and support groups. They all recommended journaling, among many other things. I don’t like writing my feelings on paper, but somehow it’s easier to type them. I guess because I was always a social media person.

I plan to share my feelings, my regrets, my sadness, my joy, my faith, and my love for my family and my God. I am currently typing this during the Lenten season. What is Lent? Lent is a 40-day Christian solemn, penitential season of prayer, fasting, and almsgiving, running from Ash Wednesday to Holy Saturday.

I decided to start this blog now because I gave up social media for Lent so I could dig deep into my feelings, as I was using scrolling as a distraction from my grief. There are so many distractions I have discovered: doom scrolling, binge-watching TV, drinking too much wine, shopping, exercising, walking, reading, and even church. These are some of the things I have been throwing myself into. I know it’s not healthy to avoid facing my grief head-on (just typing this is making me cry), hence the reason for this blog.

So, in summary, I am creating this as part of my Lenten journey—digging deep into my grief, my soul, and my faith without distractions. I still do not know if I will ever share this!